a very troubled night of dark and tumultous dreamings, fraught with turmoil and betrayal and urgent situations, the cascading scenes burnt sill into my psyche when i draggled to awakeness in my narrow bed, and the utter despair and raw and bleeding wounds of these recent years erupted in a relentless sobbing, and i do not know where to turn for sanctuary, for succor. I stumbled thru dense damp woods as the nocturnal movies flash in horrific detail across my souls windows as strive the claim that which was good and furthering i see again the rocky scramble up the jagged cliffs in my dreamings, the strangers i encountered there and the confusion of always trying to make things right for everyone.. How can i forgive what has happened to me,these betrayals? how can i forgive myself for my own monstrous actions? Ah, but thru my swollen eyes, i see the love i Am surrounded with, and i see that which is good in my life, and set these ghosts to rest, I seek to feel surrender to that which is done. I feel a tremulous smile to quiver its way across my face. The birds erupt into song in my studio, my sanctuary, the ancient PleoCatra and attentive Zoe Dorable are at my side. it was just dreams. And this good moment is my Life
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